Crazy is Good

Crazy is Good

I did something crazy and exciting recently. I signed up for a retreat with my business coach. In Thailand. By myself. I knew it was one hell of an opportunity. I’d visit a country I’d never been to before while furthering my skills as a businesswoman and coach. It would be good for me and my clients. And it felt fucking awesome!

But now that it’s starting to settle in, so are my nerves.

I’m still excited but I’m starting to feel that familiar sense of dread. The one where I’m doing something way, WAY outside of my comfort zone. All those nagging little doubts about my ability to handle something like this are creeping back in. This retreat is still a ways off. But there’s a lot to get done before I leave. Booking flights and making plans keep it right in front of me all the time.

And my brain isn’t being nice to me about it. And that’s okay.

I don’t need my brain to be nice to me. I just need to keep thinking about all the awesomeness that’ll come from this trip. Every time I start feeling insecure, I think to myself… “Good.” The more nervous and insecure I feel, the more it challenges me to push through. It forces me to remind myself that I’m badass enough to handle a solo international trip. I’m also smart enough to figure out how to reduce my anxiety.

Last year, 41,773,808 Americans traveled overseas. Thailand is a hugely popular tourist destination. I’ll be meeting my business coach there. There is no logical reason to assume this isn’t something I can’t handle.

My anxiety and PTSD want to throw me off track. But it won’t work. Because I know the truth. I know that this is an experience I’m gonna love the fuck out of. I know this is something that’s going to further my growth as a woman, business owner, and mentor. I know spending a week in my own private bungalow on the beach while “working” is definitely something I can handle ;)

We gotta stop saying “no” to the things we want because of fear. Fear is just a challenge, an opportunity for us to prove to ourselves how much we want something. Fear just wants to hear us say “Challenge accepted.”

And that’s exactly what I’m saying and doing.

Wall of Awesome

Wall of Awesome

Nothing Went According to Plan

Nothing Went According to Plan