I Felt Bad...After a Major Accomplishment!
When I finished writing out everything I put in my badass 6 week program that I just launched, what should’ve been my reaction? Woohoo! Big celebration! Yay! Right?
Except I felt kinda shitty right after I finished it. So what’s that all about?
A lot of my worst depression hit me right AFTER I was out of a really bad situation. My therapist at the time explained that when we’re in the heat of survival, we can’t focus on feeling like shit. It’s once things settle down that our brains get a chance to really process what we just went through and that’s why it often hits us hardest after we’re out.
I spent months putting this program down on paper and years actually doing all the inner work myself. That’s a lot.
So when I was caught up writing things out, organizing my thoughts, and making sure it could be the best I could possibly make it, I didn’t have the time or energy to think about the time or energy I was devoting to this.
But as soon as I had a moment to catch my breath…damn. And for a minute, it threw me off. But just for a minute. Because I’d taken the necessary steps before tackling such a monumental project to keep myself sane. (Fun behind the scenes for you: I wrote “insane” instead of sane on my rough draft of this, bit of a Freudian slip there.)
I made sure to get plenty of alone time so I could stay connected to myself. I took a lot of work breaks to stay on track with all my other obligations. And I took plenty of non-work breaks to keep myself well-fed, well-hydrated, and well-entertained.
It’s really easy to find something big to focus our attention on to distract us from ourselves. But don’t do that. That just makes the shittiness so much worse when the distraction disappears. I felt a little bummed for about a day. So I rested and rewarded myself for my hard work. Then I got back on track. But it used to take me much longer to get back on track (as in MONTHS).
Develop a system for yourself so when your distractions disappear the world doesn’t end. It’ll be a tough habit to get into in the beginning, but it’s worth it in the long run!