I'm back! From Thailand!!
I’m back from Thailand! Wow was it an adventure! I’m so glad I did it!
I went to Thailand for my first ever international trip. I flew solo, navigated huge international airports in three countries all by lonesome. On little sleep. When I got there, I spent every day in the ocean, befriended fishies, slept in a hammock by the beach, saw some amazing sunsets, hung out with elephants at an ethical sanctuary, and flew home out of one of the most beautiful airports (I didn’t know airports could be beautiful!).
Five years ago, hell even one year ago, none of this would have been possible. I was still struggling with my PTSD. I wasn’t sleeping, I wasn’t eating well, I was having panic attacks in crowded places. I couldn’t have ever handled being in a big, busy airport without someone around to guide me through it. And I didn’t want to face my situation. I wanted to do therapy and have it get better. But that isn’t how this shit works. And if I’d given in to my fears and insecurities, I would have stayed home: tired, miserable, and only daydreaming about the life I’m living now, while struggling with stress related health issues that sapped what little energy I had left. And eventually I’d end up as a bitter, miserable, old woman filled with regrets about missed opportunities.
But even though I felt too introverted to ask for help, even though I felt like I didn’t have the energy to do the work, even though I struggled setting boundaries and stepping away from toxic relationships…I found a way out, I figured out a system to address the problems I was struggling with.
And now I’m sitting here reminiscing about my most recent adventure. In Thailand! And I’ve realized the excuses were just bullshit. They were just a way to give my fears power and control over my life. What got me to where I am today was realizing that all of the self-help work I was doing alone wasn’t enough. I was doing all of the inner work, but missing out on how to incorporate that into my actual life and with the people in my life. So I came up with my 6 Steps to Total Badassery which is my mind, body, soul, AND society approach that does just that. It combines all the inner work you need with systematic methods for implementing that work into the life you’re living now so that you can turn this life into your dream life.
This is the system that got my ass to Thailand. I’m so honored and thrilled to help the clients I have now and the ones I’ll have in the future using this system. Some of the experiences that made this necessary have totally sucked, but now I have an opportunity to do something good with it. And I’m super fucking grateful for that.