Shit ain't perfect

Shit ain't perfect

Shit won't ever be perfect. I don't know how many times I've had to remind myself this. ⠀

When you go through so much of your life dealing with almost constant depression, anxiety, and insecurity you think once you deal with it life will be perfect. But that isn't reality.⠀

Don't get me wrong, reality is awesome once you overcome these challenges! But having a bad day doesn't mean you're sliding back into that hell. It just means you had a bad day. Or a bad week. And that's fine. ⠀

I've been having a bad few days. Dealing with difficult people and a hurt back. And I've been beating myself up for resting when I feel like I have a lot of work to do. Even though my life is pretty damn awesome right now (I mean, I was just recently in Thailand staying in my own little bungalow on the beach), I still have to remind myself sometimes to take it easy. To stop feeling like a few bad days mean my PTSD is regaining control over my life.⠀

It happens. It's normal. But I'm at a point where I CAN remind myself that this is normal and then go take a break, get the rest my body needs, and have some fun (I'm totally playing the fuck out of Civ VI Gathering Storm right now). And that's some major fucking progress: to have a bad week, feel tired, feel sore, feel annoyed...and still be mentally okay.⠀

I figured out how to get here so I know it’s totally possible. Don’t ever give up hope!

Shoutouts!!!! (i.e. awesome AF resources for you)

Shoutouts!!!! (i.e. awesome AF resources for you)

You got this!

You got this!