You got this!
Freedom. Confidence. Impact. Doing what I feel called to do. Finding the joy in every moment. These were things I wanted for the longest time but couldn't figure out how to achieve. Instead I felt stuck. I felt trapped in a life I didn't want and in a body that wasn't working the way it was supposed to. I felt frustrated and confused. I spent so damn long beating myself up over not doing things in the "right" order. Truth is, I don't even know what the fuck that means.
I did a lot of things "right" by a lot of people's standards. But I saw everyone else living a better life and I didn't know how to find that for myself. Hell, I didn't even know who "myself" was. And I saw it just getting worse if I didn't make a change. The “right” way wasn’t getting me me where I wanted to be. But as soon as I started doing things my way, I started getting closer to where I'm meant to be.
It got to a point where I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I couldn't keep telling myself that this was okay. Because it fucking wasn't okay for me. And it isn't okay for you.
So stop fucking following the crowd. You don't like where you are. You're too scared trying to make everyone like you to actually be your damn self. You're spending all your time trying to convince yourself you're fine because you think you're supposed to be fine, you think people won't support you if you admit you have flaws. And it's getting you nowhere.
Do you want to spend the next twenty years like this? I didn't. So I started figuring my shit out. And it's a journey. It's a never ending journey. But I'm so fucking happy with myself for going on it!
I don't fake smiles anymore, I don't fake friendships. I don't cry myself to sleep at night. I have the energy to get shit done. I take care of myself and the people I love. It's goddamned beautiful. And none of it would have happened if I hadn't gotten to a point where I was so fed up with where I was that I couldn't stand it anymore. But you don't have to wait until you're actually losing your mind, you can get started right now. It's your choice. It's always your choice.
I used to be the queen of excuses. So when people tell me they can't because (insert bullshit here), I know what's really going on. They're afraid. Fear is good though. Stop thinking it isn't. Fear is how you know you're moving forward and challenging yourself. If you're not afraid, then you're not doing enough.
And I don't really give a damn if you try to bullshit me because you aren’t. But please stop bullshitting yourself. You know better. It isn't because you’re too busy or too broke or too tired...it's because you are CHOOSING to stay stuck. That's on you, dude. But so is having a better life. So is getting unstuck and figuring shit out.
I’m not kidding when I tell you that you got this.